Why, oh why, do I insist on punishing myself?

[gnimaerd]

I need to learn to stay away from all-things Robin Hood shaped, I REALLY do.

But every now and again, I get this masochistic desire to check the robinhood2006 news section, or read interviews or just... ugh.

Is it sad that the whole thing still REALLY depresses me?

I was just reading stuff over there again and I just... can't... I can't FATHOM my show any more. It's NOT my show. The show I got such genuine pleasure out of watching and fangirling over every week is GONE and there's no way for me to claw it back. It's NOT salvagable for me - it just isn't. And it's not even as if I just naturally lost interest and it went away with me still be able to be nostalgically happy about occasionally reading fic or catching up on the latest plot arc or looking at picspams; everything to do with the show - even the old episodes - bothers me massively now. It's like the whole fandom got poisoned and now EVERYTHING is ruined. It shouldn't be - I should still be able to enjoy everything up to the series 2 finale; but I CAN'T.

I really dread what will happen when the third series starts. I will have to SERIOUSLY avoid any and all trailers/interviews/squeeing because man, it's just.too.sad. And I HATE that I'm so emotionally entangled with a TV SHOW (that I got that emotionally entangled to begin with), but there it is. I can't get over it.

Why the hell can't I get over it?

Comments

[vhari.livejournal.com]

yes! exactly. yes.

Is it sad that the whole thing still REALLY depresses me?

no.
I can't even watch the old episodes because it all seems so pointless now, does it not?

but I'll watch the first episode in blind hope the maz walks back in and when she doesn't i'll be unlikely to watch the rest.

[gnimaerd.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it seems completely pointless. Sometimes I still get ideas for fic, and I might get as far as the first paragraph, and then I'm just like '...but what the hell is the point? She DIES.' and then I stop again. Watching the old episodes just kills me. it's so bitter-sweet. I LOVED that show, and watching it just reminds me why - and how AWFUL the let down was when the second series ended. And the point is gone. What's the point of watching Marian's relationship with Robin mature? What's the point of seeing Guy's infatuation grow? What's the point of seeing her develop across two series when we know that at the end of all that, the creators just throw the character away like that?

Totally depressing. :(

[fehrlybrendan.livejournal.com]

I know EXACTLY how you feel. I can't get over it either, and it still hits me from time to time. :(

I just can't enjoy it anymore.

*hugs*

[gnimaerd.livejournal.com]

I know. That's the REALLY awful thing about this situation. I can't enjoy it any more. If they hadn't killed Marian - if they'd just exited her to go into hiding from the sheriff or something, I would still love this show. I would probably be okay about watching the third series (though without the same enthusiasm) and I would definitely still be able to enjoy the first two series, and reading fic and writing it. But, purely because of the way they got rid of Marian, I just CAN'T any more. They poisoned ALL of it. All the joy has gone out of the fandom for me and it's horrible.

[park-ave-pirate.livejournal.com]

They just started showing Season 2 over here. I haven't been able to catch an episode yet but I am a little leery.

[literateur.livejournal.com]

MY GOD you've been reading my mind recently, haven't you?

I've decided to break down and read the spoilers before actually watching season 3. You know, in case Marian doesn't come back it's crap. D:

[gnimaerd.livejournal.com]

I may read spoilers, but unless they do something RADICAL (ie show us that Marian ISN'T DEAD) I wont be watching - I just don't have the heart. :(

[outlawgirl16.livejournal.com]

oh god i totally agree it just feels so depressing

i miss robin hood i really do but whats the point if a big part of it has gone

i don't think i have the heart anymore

[gnimaerd.livejournal.com]

Me either. :(

[celsitude.livejournal.com]

I'm with you 100%. Haven't been able to watch an episode since the finale and I doubt very much that I will be able to again for a very, very long time. If ever.

Heck, I can't even read fix-it fic, it's been so damaged for me.

The thing is - it was such *useless* damage. It appears that there was no bloody reason for it and that infuriates me.

[gnimaerd.livejournal.com]

I know, that's what gets me. The POINTLESSNESS of the damage. The EASE with which they could have avoided ruining it. Whether or not Lucy Griffiths wanted to leave, there are HUNDREDS of ways that Marian could have been written out without needing the character to be killed off - and even KEEPING the idea of Guy THINKING he had killed her to make him get even darker for next series, if that's what they wanted. I would still be vaguely interested in watching the third series, and happy to keep watching my DVDs and writing fic and fangirling, if they hadn't snuffed out all hope of Marian's return like that. All they needed to do was give us a more optomistic ending - but no. they ruined it instead. I mean, what was the POINT?!

[funkyinfishnet.livejournal.com]

I feel exactly the same way, it's not stupid at all. The BBC/Tiger Aspect murdered our show and we have every right to be wrecked by it. It will take time til you're ready to face even the good stuff again. Love to you xox

[indes-elfwine.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[pelican747.livejournal.com]

Oh i feel your pain, i really do! Me i can't get over it. But i haven't actually watched the second season final since it came out! I just don't wanna put myself through that!

I'm a little worried about the third season. Naturaly i will have to watch it. but what are they going to do in it??? I can't find any info on it anywhere! none at all!

Unfortunately we will never get over it! that is the way of life.

[gnimaerd.livejournal.com]

You want my advice? Don't watch it. Ever. I wish I hadn't. it'll ruin the rest of the show for you so just save yourself the pain.

I'll keep up with spoilers for the third series, but I just don't see the point in watching... I mean, even if the show WASN'T poisoned for me now, my interest is gone, you know? Without Marian, without ANY hope of her return, I'm just not interested in the show any more.

[teenwitch77.livejournal.com]

You know I'm still convinced she's going to come back? It's complete and utter denial, but at the same time it's such a pattern in shows when they make an unpopular decision like this that I'm not completely counting it out, you know? Part of me is just expecting it (which will probably make me more pissed when the show comes back, ha)

[gnimaerd.livejournal.com]

Part of me wants to believe that (CLINGS to it); but I've been reading the most recent interviews with Lucy Griffiths (done for publicity for the start of the second series in America) and the outlook isn't good. It's fairly obvious by the way she answers certain questions about her career that she wants to be elsewhere and has moved on. I don't blame her (I just DID six months away from home at only a year younger than she was when she got the part - doing that every year, with no obvious end in sight, has to be VERY tough and I suspect it was part of the problem), but I don't think she's coming back, even if the execs ask her. :( Still, its pretty damn obvious that their audience figures are going to crash for the third series, given how unpopular the show has made itself - hopefully the People In Charge will take the hint and offer her enough money, insentive, whatever to at least CAMEO in a way that suggests that the character isn't dead. Just THAT alone, even without her full return, would make me want to start watching again.

[olivers-twist.livejournal.com]

I'm with you. I've thought about watching some of my series one DVD and I just can't bring myself to do it. It drives me crazy that they decided after two seasons of build up to figure out what happens if Robin doesn't have Marian around. What was the point of bringing her in the show in the first place if they were just going to kill her off? Twice?! It's such irresponsible writing I don't even know what to DO with it. I want to like it but. . . grr.

I will say though, that there is a very selfish part of me that misses your writing ;) I understand of course why you're struggling (being a writer myself) but the fangirl in me that wants to re-kindle that love of the Hood misses reading your work.

[gnimaerd.livejournal.com]

I miss being able to write it, too. Part of me desperately wants to still love the show, because I miss it. It was a huge part of my mental world. I feel a bit lost without it - certainly like the world is a bit duller.

[fly-to-moon.livejournal.com]

I agree with you completely. Am living in my happy AU land and slightly dreading the return of the show and the tough decision of whether to watch it or not. Vive AU!